themaniknowimnot

ughh..

i dont know why this feels so wrong. shes already planning all these dates we can go on and she thinks we’re just so perfect together, her parents are even inviting me over for meals already.. It just all feels wrong, I need to feel the same way,I need to forget the past and just accept that all of this is happening for a reason, i need to just go with it. I’m not one to give up, but maybe i just need to give in to the fact that this is happening. I should be happy that someone cares about me and is willing to actually go the extra mile everyday for me, but I havent even known her for a week, why is this happening? I over think everything.. i need to just be happy. I was supposed to see her a few days ago but i told her i had to go to the recruiters office, later that day she told me she cried over that. I mean what the heck, ive known the girl for a week and something like that is already going to upset her. All I wanted was someone that really cares, she does, but again it just doesnt seem right. im going to her house now and i guess ill have to see how things work out and just hope for the best. And shes going to have to get used to the fact that im lazy and wont shave everyday

going over to her house soon, it should be a pretty good day

Going to schools tomorrow for my flag football and team sports exams

such a waste of time..

I just need to stop thinking about her..

im wasting my time thinking about what we used to have because shes made it so we can never have that again. everything i say to her now just makes me sound like a jerk, there really isnt anything nice for me to say at this point because nothing is good enough for her, every word she says is just immature and she just doesnt understand a word I say. She makes me sound like the bad guy when really all of this was her fault for not trying to understand where i was coming from. So its past time for me to move on, date tomorrow night, hopefully ill be able to enjoy it..